I suppose everyone has had the same question going through their mind really though haven't they? Do I write about myself? How I feel? What I want? I suppose it will all come out at some point! You don't know just how lucky you are - you have the chance to get a look inside my head! For free!! I can't give you any guarantees that I'm normal - because I must admit I scare myself sometimes, but then I look at some of the other people out there and the way they live their lives and I think 'what the f**k was I worried about?'.

I think I sort of see this as a kind of counselling. You sort of rabbit on and on and on - and at some point you kind of see what the whole point of all the whinging was for. Or at least that's how it worked when I last sat in front of some wimpy hippy looking woman with a handshake that was akin to holding a wet lettuce leaf.

As today has gone, its been fairly boring and uneventful. The kids are on their summer holidays - but the weather is shite so we're a bit restricted as to what we can do and where we can go. Hence I've been stuck indoors doing housework - what sort of god-forsaken moron invented that then? I have washed the laundry basket - now I mean, how freaking sad have you got to be to wash a laundry basket? I just know that I don't want to be sat here in another five years doing the same brain-dead stuff. I hate it. I want some excitement. I watch some of these programmes on the TV - I'd love to go on an expedition across the North Pole, go bug-hunting in the jungle or explore some volcanoes. Something that you would never, ever forget til the day you died. Maybe I've been brain-washed into not being able to leave my kids to do something like flying over the other side of the world for a bit of adventure. But hey, who am I kidding? I can't even get my husband to go out anywhere other than the pub.

Maybe an affair would liven things up but I don't know; I quite like my husband (when he's behaving himself LOL). I do feel sorry for the guy - I can't be the easiest person to put up with, but I did warn him before he married me; he had enough warning!!

I'm thinking maybe I should go and make a coffee, tidy up a bit. Back to the boredom......