You know I just couldn't sleep last night :-/. I had the husband snoring next to me, the windows were open - rain pelting it down outside, gale force winds blowing the curtains across the room and my brain just wouldn't stop thinking! I did get out of bed to close the windows so I could cut out most of the noise and stop the dancing curtains but the OH immediately woke up (just like he does when I put Friends on funnily enough) and he started whinging about how stuffy the bedroom was. So I now feel like a complete bag of shite :yawn:

I know subconsciously the biggest problem is that I know I'm not 100% happy with my life. Trouble I feel ungrateful almost for feeling like that! I have beautiful kids, and husband that adores me and somewhere to live - what the hell is wrong with me?? Some people would love to have what I have. Yet I want more.

I don't want to spend the rest of my life getting more and more bitter about what I feel I'm missing out on. Other people have it all, why can't I? I try to break it down but always cannot come up with logical answers.

I've tried finding the answers in the past - I found out that I was (apparently) a white witch in a past life and I been back here so many times because I don't learn from my mistakes. So tell me something I don't frigging know!! :crazy: I was invited to visit one of the covens (I think thats what they call the witch clubs lol) - my biggest fear was that you sleep with loads of strangers (could be fun ;)) and that they'd see my stretch marks!!

Does everyone feel this confused about life in general? I walk down the road and other people look normal and happy; I feel like I bimble through life in a constant stream of confusion.